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realizations
a month has passed since i've arrived in bonn. can't believe the time here.

i did more cooking than i ever did in the same duration, i attempted to speak more languages than i used to (imagine me trying to speak mandarin to my mother over skype and to chinese-speaking friends; picking up some greek from stefanos, a bit of german here and there, smattering bits of spanish).

i've started to notice more new things about myself.

strength. just slightly before i left singapore, one of my happiest days in my life came crumbling down to reminding me of a past that haunts me. Truth revealed its real self to me after so many years. initially, coming to terms with it was definitely like swallowing rocks down my throat. i learnt what silent screams meant.

however, with this space to sit back, i wouldn't say i don't care, at least the time lapse has provided me with the serenity and let it all go. i would not be the person i am here, if not for the events that shaped me. i probably would never have been who i am now. so i am very thankful.

i am surrounded by encouraging folks and thank you very much for that. sometimes i am coming to terms with myself, and i struggle with words .. but i am slowly working the ugly side of me to become a better person. i know where my weaknesses are, i'm heading the direction where i know i should.. maybe slow, but surely.

initially i could feel it in me.. there was some sort of an inertia, something withholding myself from performing my best. today after managing a semi-crisis, i found my determination and perfectionism back.

maybe crisis management is an area i should explore as a career...

it's 7:19 AM now on Wednesday, August 11, 2010



Globetrekker..
Planning next destination:
Ohio, USA; Mexico City, Mexico Been to: Malaysia, Sri Lanka, Turkey, Japan, China, Vietnam, Cambodia, Brazil, France, the Netherlands, Belgium, Italy, Tunisia, Germany, England, India.
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