i managed to get through round 1. smu called to say my interview's on fri. ok, i must admit i've got butterflies in my stomach now. there's a lump in my throat. i'm terrified at the thought of having my interview in a group. but i must pull this off.

maybe the odds are against me now. perhaps it might seem a wrong turn by others, but from where i stand, it's the best decision for me. sometimes fortunes change. and i certainly hope it does.

fed up this time. feels like i'm getting pushed around. like i must listen to others, follow their bidding all the time. it's unfair to expect this much from me. i only try to be easy-going, but when i really don't want to participate in some activity, i get some hurting remark. i'm not going feel guilty like i used to. since both of you always doubt me, and doubt my character even though we've been so close all this while. i'm sick of this. n this 'sisterly' thing you call, i don't feel it and neither am i interested in hearing all this anymore. it's happened one too many times that in the end, i've lost my faith in you too.